A Little Randomness

A list of my current thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc.

1. Fr Brian is the cutest man alive. He’s like 50 something and like 5 foot tall and he jumps around like a mad thing in praise and worship. So darn cute! The love I have for that man..

2. I don’t know where my faith is going. At the moment I just kind of want to sit back and mull over it all. I believe, I don’t doubt it. I’m just not sure what I want. I’m not sure I’m prepared for what God has for me. I’m not sure I’m worthy of any of it. I know he’s there and I know he’s great, I just don’t know where I’m headed next. And on one particular matter, I’m concerned God has me going somewhere in life I don’t want to go. If that’s the case, I’m prepared to put up a fight. Although I get the feeling this is one of those decisions we have to make alone. One of those decisions where he’s opened it up and left it to us to decide because he’ll make it work no matter what. So yeah. I guess the point I’m trying to make is that I want God, I’m just not ready yet to take the next step. And I don’t want to force it upon myself, I want to want it. I’m just not there yet.

3. I’m like fangirling over a friend of mine.. Paul.. I actually adore the man. You know what my problem is though? He’s a, uh, MGL brother … So he’s on his way to priesthood. That makes it all a lil’ complicated. However! He looked at me! haha he glanced at me a couple of times like as he walked past me or whatever. But I was too chicken to say anything.. He’s just so intimidating with his perfection.. :P

4. I’m so tired. Tonight was good fun, but it drained me.

5. I’m just as confused about everything as I was before.

6. I’m also currently a little giggly when it comes to a crush..

7. I have another whole day tomorrow..